Thursday, August 17, 2000

How very strange. I am awake. It is quarter past 1 in the morning.... and I'm not tired.... without the assitance of caffeine. This can't be right. There must be a chemical imbalance in my body...

Moving on... ARGH!. I hate this webramp thing. Well... I hate the fact that the power source for it rests inches away from my foot, and an accidental twitch or something can knock it out.... ack.

Bah. Nevermind. Napster is so nifty.

Wednesday, August 16, 2000

I can't stand this. There are people online whom I'd like to "chat" with, however... I've got nothing in mind to talk about. Furthermore, due to my lack of things to say, I don't feel particularly inclined to initiate the conversation. This is disgusting. I need to do something to get myself to do things, because there's really no bad consequence of not having anything to say... well... maybe there is, but I don't know it. That's just the problem. Ack. I think it's time for a quote:

Ok... well... I don't remember the quote exactly, but it was something about how our doubts are our greatest enemies preventing what one might oft win, by fearing to attempt or something like that. Shakespeare said it so it was much more nicely worded. Back to getting a chess game.

Argh. This is no good. I'm thinking I don't like the way things are. I need to do something. I need to be good at something, ideally something applicable, as opposed to stupid wastes of my time. Chess is still a good idea, but it won't help me too much in the way of skills-I can-say-I-can-do-and-use-that-as-a-reason-why-I-should-be-employed. Learning Java or XML or something is that kind of thing. Playing music falls into the same category as chess, sort of. At least for me it does. Argh. I don't even babble coherently anymore. I think the people I was at camp with were right. I am going crazy.

Alright... I'm going to go play some chess... and then see if I'm in the mood for attempting to do anything else.

Tuesday, August 15, 2000

I'm so bored. I need to move off this stupid inAsphere old layout. It's ugly, and cumbersome. I'm going to design a nice new site w/ Dreamweaver before school starts I think. Maybe I'll go look up some books I could get. Argh.

It's so horrible. I'm addicted. I can't help it, I'm very susceptible to such things. I tried a silly computer game once... and now I'm hooked. It's horrible. Diablo II is calling me... ack ack ack.

It's quite late, and I'm in no mood to do anything. Ugghh...